Oh fuck where do I start. ._.
You are one incredible guy and I say this because I can’t really think of an actual word that describes you. We have so much in common and the things we don’t have It makes me wanna try so hard to like those things just so I would shine brighter in your eyes. I’m guessing by now you figured out that I like you. I mean, I like you a lot. It’s honestly insane, and kinda funny how it came to be. First time I stumbled on to your blog I never expected to fall so quickly. I read your bio and just thought to myself “Oh my god, this guy is perfect”. I’ve really never thought that about a guy before, well that wasn’t a celebrity, but oh god dude, you’re everything I want in a guy. Taller than me which is so fucking hard to find, in love with music like I am, you’re ability to play piano is just a home run for me, but what really brought it home was the fact that you’re another writer. I fucking love that about you, and the fact that you’re stunning at it shocked the hell out of me. Honestly, when I went to read your writing for the first time I was soo hoping that you sucked. I didn’t wanna have another reason to like you but I was so wrong. It’s fucking crazy how bad I want you. I’ve really never felt this way about a guy. I’ve never had this feeling where I want to do nothing but talk to someone. I’ve never had someone on my mind constantly. I’ve never had someone living inside my dreams every night since I’ve met them. You changed all that. The little times when we talk I feel like I’m on cloud 9. I literally act like a 12 year old girl that was just kissed for the first time. You caused all that and It’s so new for me.
I wish we lived in the same area and not on opposite ends of the country, cause I swear to god if you lived anywhere near me I would go to the ends of the earth to try and make you mine. Even though you’re more of a romantic than I am, I would try my hardest to flatter you in some way.
I love the fact that you wanna go to college in New York like I do. Just knowing that really makes me wanna strive to get into NYU so I could see you. It kinda gives me something to look forward to in the future. Plus you did say if we were both single by the time we were both in NY we would go on a date. You don’t know how much I really want that to happen. My only concern is that you won’t be available by the time that comes around. You’re posting all these things about you going on dates and kissing other guys and it’s killing me, cause I like you so much. I hate that I’m doing this right now but I really can’t stand another minute of you not knowing how I feel. I also hate how this letter sounds. I feel like I’m putting too much into it, but at the same time it’s appropriate because it’s how I feel. I dunno. I’m a weird kid. >_< I just don’t wanna scare you off.
But if you don’t feel anything at all towards me, try and let me down easily? please. It’s bad enough that you’ll be rejecting me, but at least the scar won’t be as deep if you do it in a positive way. I know I’m probably asking for too much here, long distance relationships are rough, but in my eyes, no one else is worth it. I’d try and make it work because I’d be with you emotionally, even though I love the little physical things like kissing, hugging, or just simply touching the person, I figured you’re worth it. And it would be so much more special to do those things when we’re finally in the same area.
So yeah. I feel soo much better! OMFG! Get back to me when you can.
P.S. I honestly can’t sit through one Adele song without thinking about you. OMFG it’s nuts dude..